Looking in the Mirror

Tonight I had a memory flood my mind. I remembered back to when our daughter was just a few weeks old. She weighed less than 10 pounds. Her birthmark was very large and dark red/purple. Her cheek looked like she had a golf ball in her mouth and her eye was swollen closed. I began adding "bella" to the end of her name as a reminder that she is beautiful.

I distinctly remember a morning when I had given our daughter her normal dose of medications and took her with me into the bathroom to wash out her medicine dropper. Her reflection in the mirror caught me off guard. I'm not sure why, but looking at our daughter in the mirror was shocking to me. I cried because I was sad for her future. I wondered how this baby girl would ever be able to look at herself in the mirror as she got ready for school. I feared the ridicule of peers who wouldn't understand why she looked different. I thought about her teenage years and how hard these years are for all girls, much less a girl who looks different from others. I was so sad!

Flash forward two years...

Our daughter just had her second birthday. She is a girlie girl and I was excited to get her some dress-up clothes, hair bows and jewelry to add to her collection. Jason found a full length mirror on sale which thrilled me because I thought it would complete the "dress-up" theme. She could primp and look at herself all day long!

Tonight our little girl got down from the dinner table with a little food (ok, a lot of food) still on her face. She walked up to her new mirror (which still happens to be in the living room) and touched the dirty places on her face. She noticed that her face looked different. All of a sudden I was reminded of my fears from her first few weeks in our lives. I am thankful that her beautiful face is not disfigured. I am thankful for the doctors who knew about the impact a blood pressure medication would have on her birthmarks. I am thankful for her smile and the joy she brings to my life. I am thankful for this experience tonight where I was reminded that our daughter is a miracle!

Thank you for the specific prayers you've prayed for our daughter!

Wanna hear some good news?!?

That's how my conversation started with the neurologist tonight, "Wanna hear some good news?" He was calling in response to our daughter's MRI/MRA scans that were performed last week.

Let me back up to the beginning of this chapter of our lives...

In early November, our daughter completed her routine round of doctor's visits with her specialists (Neurologist, Dermatologist, and Ophthalmologist). They all agreed that because it had been about a year since her last MRI/MRA, it would be a good idea to scan her again to see what is happening inside her body.

When it came time to schedule these tests, Austin Radiological was very nervous about fitting her in before the end of the year. She was scheduled for 6 separate exams both with and without contrast (orbits, brain, head, face, neck, and chest) that would take up to 3 hours on the table. Finding that type of time in the ARA schedule was tricky, but we were lucky to talk with a very helpful lady to was able to fit us in in only a couple of weeks...then our daughter was diagnosed with bronchitis, so we had to postpone...then ARA scheduled her for a mobile table (which can't be used when a child is being sedated), so we had to postpone...then her lungs weren't clear, so we had to postpone...then ARA requested we move from a PM time to an AM time, so we had to postpone...then our daughter was sick again, and we had to postpone...six times! Her pediatrician eventually chose to put her on a steroid to strengthen her lungs so we could have the test, and voila...she had her tests on Friday, 1/13!

The tests went well. Our daughter did great and slept through all of the scans (the paramedics were a little concerned that they wouldn't be able to keep her asleep the whole time). The medications rocked her world, but by the next day, she was able to walk and talk normally. She came down with croup that evening, but everyone assures us it was unrelated.

So, to our results...

- The hemangioma around her eye is GONE! This is the area that received the most prayer due to her eye being swollen closed and vision concerns from the time she was just a few weeks old.

- The hemangiomas on the back of her neck and in her chest are stable.

- Her carotid artery is stable.

- Her brain looks great.

- Her heart looks great.

Celebrate with us as we celebrate our daughters health! We are thankful!!!